..so... why exactly do you people still want me to post? I mean I can understand commented back and forth to stay in touch.. which I still do, but why post about my life exactly..?

don't really feel like saying anything specific.. I'm back now.. umm if you want me to really update about something, comment.

later

EDIT: JESSIE'S BACK!!!! WOOOTTT!!!!!!!!!! oh yeah.. and I just found out, yes TODAY, August 8th, at 3:00PM, that I, Joe Marchetti, am leaving for duluth and the north shore of lake superior tomorrow, august 9th... GREAT.. now I don't get to talk to Jessie now that she's back for another two days... and I won't get to talk to my courtney for two days strait!! *tear* 

Hello... yepp, another skin change... this one is of Squall and Rinoa from ff8.. mixed in with some Blink 182 lyrics... tell me what you think....

And just as a sorta life update.. me and court are once again deeply in love .. (well, not that we ever stopped being deeply in love, just it's like.. well I would say official... but I can't because SOMEBODY's... phone broke?) Lol..

Anyways.. alot has happened in the past... and some of you know alot, and some of you know just the basics... but I personally want all of you to know that Courtney didn't hurt me.. I hurt myself. I'm the one who stayed by her side, she told me to go.. that I should explore too.. that I should see other girls, so I could tell for myself if Courtney really was the one I wanted to dedicate my life too... but I didn't want to.. so any pain that I might have had... came from me.. not her. So please don't judge her from what I tell you... because when I tell you guys stuff, when I'm sad and depressed and stuff.. I'm going to tell it to you from the sad and depressed point of view... so it gives an illusion that she hurt me more then I actually was hurting.. just.. please, don't be angry at her... she's the greatest chick in the world.. she's funny, she's athletic, she's very artistic, shes beautiful, she's incredibly fun to be around.. sometimes it's almost embarrassing actually.... she's..... perfect.. at least to me... because unlike anyone else (with exception of alicia.. well only alicia can't be AS close as me and courtney are.. if you know what I mean.... ) and I know when you guys get angry at her or whatever, you're just sticking up for me because you see that I'm hurt and you don't want me hurt... so thanks.. but if you do anything.. I'd rather you comfort me then start telling me that the love of my life did something wrong.... and theres one person that I'd like to acknowledge specifically.. sammy, you're the only one who's supported courtney and I.. and didn't try to bash on courtney, and knows that courtney really does love me... and you admited that, and told me not to hurt her, and that she needed me not you.. even when you liked me yourself.. that took alot of guts.. thank you.. you're really a great friend. But guys... I really love courtney.. and she really loves me.. she always has... just in the past she tryed to drive herself away from it because we can never see each other... but now.. she doesn't care.. she told me to give her until 10th grade.. and I told her until we both could drive.. because then it would be easier for us to see each other... but she chose to stay for good early... she really did.. and despite all the dot dot dots, it's the second greatest thing I've ever heard.... its just.. it sorta seems too good to be true, ya' know? (Lol picking up a little on Raijin there..... Lol lets just hope I don't start talking like Fuijin.. that would be freaking HARD) idk... all I know is that she really does love me, and I really love her.. and I trust that she will stay... she's really never been this without doubt of herself before.. I mean she's told me she was going to stay, but whenever I would ask "well what if a perfect guy came around? what? I'm not perfect... no I'm not... no I'm not!!.... I'M NOT!!! ...... ugh FINE.. well, a guy exactly like me but that you could actually see all the time, and that your parents liked?".. and she would always reply "well.. I don't know Joe... but I know out of all the guys I know right now, you're the only one I could see myself marrying." but now she replys "I don't care.. all I want is you, I don't care about any perfect guy, and I dont want to take any chances at getting hurt.. I know I love you.. and I know I'm safe with you.... Joe.. you're the person I want to spend the rest of my life with." big change, huh?.. everythings pefect now.. well.. still can't see each other.. but between us.. it's perfect... theres no "what ifs" about other guys anymore.. there's no "well if I could see him..."... there's nothing. Just our never ending friendship and love.. you don't have to comment on all of this if you don't want to... It's mostly just important that you know that my pain isn't courtney's fault.. but you are free to state your feelings no matter what they are.. and I won't get mad at you for any of them..

well, here's some lyrics that don't really go with the whole courtney thing.. just the layout, to finish off this post.

I swear that I can go on forever again
Please let me know that my one bad day will end
I will go down as your lover, your friend
Give me your lips and with one kiss we begin

Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

I'll leave my room open till sunrise for you
I'll keep my eyes patiently focused on you
Where are you now I can hear footsteps I'm dreaming
And if you will, keep me from waking to believe this

Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of being alone
Cause I am, I'm lost without you
Are you afraid of leaving tonight
Cause I am, I'm lost without you

I'm lost without you
I'm lost without you

Later all..

Here's something I found that I think is pretty cool...

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Author: Jaye of Tainted Autopsy Issue #1

What are my thoughts on "punk"? Absolutely nothing of it. Okay, scratch that. I may have a few words on it. Wait, it? What do you mean by "it"? First of all, the misconception of whatever the hell "punk" may or may not be could possibly be the last thing that's on my mind. The only thing that does irritate me the lesat bit is the folks who walk around, prancing, like they're the punkest monkey around. I'm not saying you, people or they, people have no right to give their opinion on what may or may not be "punk." Whether you claim to know what "punk" is, you're wrong to at least one other person in this world.

Maybe "punk" is (or was) about anarchism, rebellion, kicking trashcans and throwing beer bottles. Maybe "punk" is (or was) about non-conformity and being original and yourself, not some corporate sprout. Maybe "punk" is (or was) about mohawks and dyed hair and piercings. Frankly, I don't care. It doesn't matter, because whatever was "punk" back in the day, say it may be, the 70's?...it's gone now.

Whatever is here now is clearly a mistaken replica of what we, or they, wish to be and repeat from the past. I grew up around friends who introduced me to certain genres of punk rock, and without them, I would be listening to Britney Spears right now. But I've given up on giving more that a rat's ass about what is or what isn't "punk"...it's not worth it.

The definition of "punk" is practically demolished. Even trying to define "punk" is worthless, a complete waste of time. I've tried, and look! Even trying to explain the fact that "punk" can't be defined is killing me for the most part. Even if I tried to give my thought about it, there would always be someone out there disagreeing with me. My personality and likings root from the so-called "punk" natures, but why try and define what it is? Why try to fight over what's punk and what's not? Why not just enjoy life? Labels, I don't care much for. how are we to go about with our lives without giving certain labels to identify people and things? But if there's one label I dislike it's "PUNK." How do you set apart and identify someone or something left only with that stupid word that people couldn't even define correctly?

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Damn strait

damn thats one sexy man...